...As long as I'm Living, My Baby you'll Be.

"Love You Forever". My mom, grandma and anyone who could read, used to read this book to me everynight before bed. This book will also be the book that I'm going to read to my child. Speaking of loving forever, my wedding is in two months (Oct. 15) and I dont even know what my theme colors. Since its going to be outside and during Autumn, I wanted it to kinda match ya know? I was thinking about purple and rustic orange with some silver...but I cant really picture that in my head. If anybody has ideas...help me out since Murphy is leaving the planning up to the ladies. I need some advice people. Come on...
I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
But as long as I'm living,
My baby you'll be.

Jonathan Murphy and Ashley Powell
October 15, 2005
Another Murphy added to the family
March 1, 2006

Unexpecting (and now Expecting) News

Man oh man oh man. This has been a looong time since ive done this. i guess i can start back now that my life is hectic again. Anyways. About two weeks ago, I found out I was pregnant. My mom was getting suspicious because I had been peeing a lot and my stomach was hurting. So she shows up with one of those prego tests that you pee in a cup and dip the little sucker thing in it and drop some drops on this little hole on the test....anyways. Well, who'da thunk it. It came out two lines (meaning +). Later that night, since my mom is like the manager of managers at the hospital, shes free to do whatever she wants there, so we walk into the ultrasound department...and i get to see my baby. Murphy was beside me the whole time. He looked like he was gunna cry when we saw the heartbeat. Come to find out, I was 7 weeks along. This Friday will be 9 weeks...and we're getting married in October...

...Am I Crazy?...

Have you ever just sat there and heard dogs barking? Or wondered what that little child-like scream was that you heard when you woke in the middle of the night? What about seeing that white shadow across the room as you're laying in the dark on your bed, staring at the wall, and as soon as you look over at that shadow, it disappears. Hmm...Am I crazy?...

My Heavenly Hell...

Yesterday, my world went goth. Ya know, I've got the whole black bedroom and stuff. Well, I already have the facial piercings and clothes and what not to go along with it. All that was left was my redhair. Just needed to change that...and look what I did. I look like the Emily doll...the one with the long coal black hair and the short ass bangs. Yea...that's me. Anywho...I wrote this poem. Check it out. Tell me whatcha think...

Ragdoll.
been tossed around. and clowned upon.
was thrown away. then stepped all on.
they broke my neck and now i fall.
im nothing but a simple ragdoll.
then you came along and made me smile.
you made my entire world worth while.
what happened now you treat me bad.
dolls have feelings, now this doll's sad.
those darkened eyes keep telling lies.
but you cant hear my deafening cries.
youre too caught up. youre too mistaken.
on my heart, your wrath has shaken.
your simple hands got you above us all
now im simply your ragdoll.
youve hurt me so. you make me cry.
you make me pray that soon ill die.
i hope your heart burns for this.
but i will always be here for you to kiss.
you made it clear, you promised, that you would call.
do you not love your little ragdoll?
i cant believe i fell so deep,
so deep in love it makes me scream.
the promises you break rips my heart in two.
but your ragdoll will never stop loving you.

I dont know. Just things off the top of my head. Not much effort. Of course, I don't wanna do something that takes so much time and effort...when it's to Gino. Now do I?

Death: Life As I Know It.

Boy. Doesn't it just suck when you realize you're completely happily, significantly in love...then it all gets taken away in a matter of seconds? I've been single now for a week and a half...and he's already been out dating one of my friends. Jealousy's a BITCH! Damn, do I hate life. I've been debating on whether or not I should move back to my homestate...Texas. Either I get laid...get a boyfriend...or die...If none of these things happen my last option would be to move. FuKaToPiA!...Wanna Fanta? Anywho...Life as I know is about to seise to exist. Pleasant eh? Email me for advice...

Say No To Drugs :)

that's right. hell did freeze over...cause i never thought i'd get off probation. today was my first day of freedom. i could hear the hallelujuah choir sing the moment i left school at 1:20...and guess what i did. HA...youll never know. :) now i am legally allowed to hang out with my boyfriend, talk to his two best friends, hang out with my best friend, talk to my ex...and do all the bad things that if i ever got caught doing, god help me i'd be in jail forever. to all those who thought i'd never get out....HA....to those who hoped i never got out....HAHA....to those who prayed to whatever they pray for so i wouldn't get out....HAHAHAHAHAAA....i walked into D.'s and i could smell the aroma of marijuana....mary jane....my sweet redhead.... pot.... bud.... reefer....whatever all you heathens call it....marijuana....and guess what i did. the thing ive been doing for my entire rebelious....god forsaken...onery-like life. SAY NO TO DRUGS. :) hoollllaaaaaa..........

No Minors...No Narks....

Hiya. Todays the first day of me writing...I'm not gunna put much. Oh yea...if you're related to me in anyway, please step away from your computer screen and flip the off switch......now. Ok. Anyone that is reading this is either some perverted freak on a leash with nothing better to do but whack off to some teenagers typings...or your one of my friends.

Warning: Some material you are about to see may not be suitable for children under 18 or anyone related to the writer (in other words---immaturians and narks/relatives).

Thank you so very much for your time...

Buddha, Riblet and Nip

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Hey this is my boyfriend (Buddha), me (Riblet) and my boyfriends sister/my best friend (Nip)

Me and my Sis

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This is me and my little sister Madison...